My Mom

My Mom

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“You might have a mom / She might be the bomb / But ain’t nobody got a mom like mine”

– “Mom” by Meghan Trainor

My mom had a birthday recently, which made me start thinking about her and all that she’s done for me. And that’s how we ended up here – because I’m a lot better at writing than talking.

We all know by now that I love Selena Gomez (I promise there’s a point to this; stick with me). I don’t know why I remember this, but several years ago she won some Teen Choice Award for her charitable impact (certainly well-deserved). When she was giving her acceptance speech, she thanked her mother. “She gave up her life for me,” she said.

My mom gave up her life for me.

We can sit here all day and argue about who’s mom is the best, but you’ll just be blowing smoke to me – I already know mine is the best.

My mom has heart problems and has had a pacemaker since her twenties. She never knew if she would be able to have children, but she had faith (she also had an amazing grandmother named Mary, hence my name). During her pregnancy with me, she was beyond sick, and spent much of it on bed rest. Then I came a little bit early (not dangerously so), and I was not happy about making my entrance into the world when I did. I screamed. Hard. Clearly my lungs were fully developed.

I was not an easy baby. The screaming never really stopped. But I was her baby, and she adored me (this is not me bragging, this is actually a statement of fact). And I never got easier. I got diagnosis after diagnosis heaped upon me, and she took it. She accepted it. She says it makes her love me more.

She’s the one who coordinates my medical appointments, makes sure my medicine gets refilled on time, and comforts me when I’m crying because I think it’s all unfair. She does it all without a thought for herself and for her own health. She has made me her world.

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“She’s your mother, you love her / There won’t be another place like her again that you call home / She stands there to help you / There’s nothing she won’t do”

– “Mother” by Sugarland

She does everything without thinking of herself. She’s a nurse, and she helps people all day. She helps her own mother. She runs and takes care of our household. It’s just the way she is, the way she chooses to do life.

I can’t put into words how much my mother means to me. I know every religion has different ideas about how we got here, how we ended up in our little families. But I know, with every fiber of my being, that I was meant to be her daughter. Heavenly Father put us together somehow, because he knew we needed each other.

She is my best friend, my rock, my support system, my encourager, and my cheerleader. She is the reason I am where I am today. No, really, when I was on homebound, she would sit in bed with me and read my social studies book to me. When I was in high school, she fought teachers who wouldn’t abide by my 504 plan. And even now, in college, she goes to bat for me with the disability office.

She lets me choose what shows we binge watch, what movies we watch, and what music we listen to in the car. She lets me choose pretty much everything, actually.

Yes, my mother gave up her life for me. And I will be eternally grateful to her for it.

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“She’s a beacon, a harbor / A lighthouse, her armor / A promise and a blanket when it’s cold / You’ll understand it more when you get older / You’ve got each other / That’s your mother”

– “Mother” by Sugarland

Mom, if you’re reading this, thank you. I love you to the moon and back.

“Motherhood is near to divinity. It is the highest, holiest service to be assumed by mankind.”

– Howard W. Hunter

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Spring 2018 Favorites

Spring 2018 Favorites

spring 2018 faves

Yes, you read the title of this post right. This is my spring favorites post. I know it’s a little  late for that, but as you can tell from my last post, I was kind of busy at the beginning of the summer. And because I have this strange love for favorites posts (and I already had it outlined), I decided to go ahead and write it. After all, since I started with these favorites posts, I’ve never missed one. So, read it or not; it’s up to you.

Movies & TV //

Avengers: Infinity War – I feel so confused about this movie. Like, I didn’t love it, okay? I’ll admit it. It wasn’t my most favorite movie ever, or even my most favorite Marvel movie ever, which I was kind of expecting. That being said, I went into this movie ignoring the fact that it was somewhat of a two-parter. And, regardless of how much I liked it, it completely destroyed my heart. So, yes, I believe it belongs on this list.

Forever My Girl – This was so. Cute. Yes, it was very cheesy and kind of felt like a Hallmark movie at times, but it was heartwarming and taught such a good lesson about the importance of love and family. I absolutely adored this.

Same Kind of Different as Me – First and foremost, I will see any movie with the highly underrated John Voight in it. But beyond that, this movie was fantastic. It tells the true story of a woman who volunteers regularly at a homeless shelter. When trying to mend their marriage, her husband begins coming with her. Over time, their entire family befriends one homeless man in particular. Going beyond that description would spoil what happens, but this is definitely something that will make you think, and remind you that there is no difference between you and me and that homeless person on the street corner.

The Royal Wedding – Yes. I am including this. I have no shame. Prince Harry is my favorite royal (don’t tell the others), and if he wouldn’t marry me, then I’m glad he married Meghan Markle. She is simply fantastic, and I loved the combination of traditional British and American themes in their wedding ceremony. Also, she looked fabulous.

Beauty //

Simple Replenishing Rich Moisturizer – You might have noticed the large amount of skincare products I’ve been listing in my favorites posts recently. While I do just love skincare (I think it’s connected to my makeup obsession…I have problems), the real reason I’ve been trying so many different things is because my skin is mad at me. But, never fear, I think I have finally found a moisturizer that my skin and I can agree upon.

The Body Shop body butter – I thought Bath & Body Works had good body butters; it turns out that they have okay body butters. (Also, if you’re wondering what a body butter actually is, it’s basically a super thick body moisturizer. I guess it does kind of feel like butter, but it’s not slimy and nasty.) You see, I have been deprived of the pleasure of having an actual Body Shop store near me (#smalltownprobs). I could buy Body Shop products from Ulta, but why do that when they’re way cheaper at Marshall’s/TJ Maxx? Anyways, wherever you buy them, these body butters are incredibly moisturizing and amazing, but check out the scent first, because some of them are kind of…not great.

Tarte Maneater Mascara – Yes, I am still using Black Friday deals because I have no concerns about sanitation. In almost every case, I stand by the fact that drugstore mascaras are actually better than high-end options. This mascara isn’t necessarily better than my drugstore favorites, but it’s definitely as good. It can give a nice, fluttery look, or you can build it up for something more dramatic. Cue Hannah Montana singing “Best of Both Worlds.”

CoverGirl Total Tease Mascara – Another fantastic mascara is making the list this time. This one isn’t quite as dramatic, but still really nice. However, please do not let the strange wand throw you off. It looks like some strange sort of toothbrush, but it actually works really well for catching all of your lashes, no matter how short.

Books //

100 Days to Brave by Annie F. Downs – This is a devotional book that I started earlier in the year and finally finished. Normally I’m not into the whole devotional thing, but I really love Annie Downs and how relatable she is. Also I feel like the little tasks for each day were really good. (Like, have you ever written a thesis statement for your life? Well, now I have.)

Alex & Eliza by Melissa de la Cruz – Apparently de la Cruz and her family went to see Hamilton, and her kids asked her about Alexander Hamilton and his wife Elizabeth Schuyler. She did some research to try to answer their questions, but there is very little known about them. So, she did the next best thing: she wrote a historical fiction novel with only the major, verifiable historical facts. The rest was purely fiction. But I hope that maybe, just maybe, it did happen this way.

Salt to the Sea by Ruta Sepetys – In my opinion, Sepetys is one of the most prolific young adult historical fiction authors…ever. This novel centers on a group of refugees fleeing East Prussia during World War II. But this isn’t a cute happily ever after story. It is a true testament to what happened to millions, and it is hopelessly painful. But Sepetys is perhaps one of the few authors who could inject such beauty into that pain.

Beautiful Uncertainty by Mandy Hale – Mandy Hale is better known as The Single Woman, which also happens to be the name of her popular blog. And, yes, she does discuss being single in this book. But, more than anything, this book is about waiting. As Mandy recounts a year in her life, she makes it clear that although waiting for anything in life can be difficult, God is with us through every second of it.

Quotes //

“We the survivors are not the true witnesses. The true witnesses, those in possession of the unspeakable truth, are the drowned, the dead, the disappeared.” – Primo Levi

“I am braver than I realize. And I will prove it today.” – Annie F. Downs

“of course i want to be successful / but i don’t crave success for me / i need to gain / enough milk and honey / to help those around / me succeed” – rupi kaur

“You have to allow yourself to be broken sometimes without trying to cover it up, run from it, hide from it, or conceal it from the world. You have to let the pain do its thing. Allow it to wash over you, allow the tears to fall, stop asking, ‘How do I make it stop?’ and start asking, ‘What did this come to teach me?” – Mandy Hale

Songs //

“In My Blood” by Shawn Mendes

“Butterflies” by Kacey Musgraves

“Tequila” by Dan + Shay

“No Excuses” by Meghan Traior

“Who You Say I Am” by Hillsong Worship

“Get Along” by Kenny Chesney

“Cry Pretty” by Carrie Underwood

“Found/Tonight” by Lin-Manuel Miranda and Ben Platt

“Tremble” by Mosaic MSC

“You Make it Easy” by Jason Aldean

“Queens Don’t” by RaeLynn

“I Lived It” by Blake Shelton

“Babe” by Sugarland ft. Taylor Swift

“Broken Prayers” by Riley Clemmons